Hard Sad day

Today was a hard day. Over the past 48 hours I had been reading updates from various sources on how our young friend was doing.  This morning before church I learned he has gone home to meet our Lord.  I didn't know Ty very well, but I knew his family.  I hurt for them!

Ty Osman was a Freshman at Harding University.  He was traveling to Texas for Spring Break with 5 other students.  When a jeep in front of them was in an accident, he pulled over to check on them.  He was out of his car when his truck was hit causing it to hit him.  He was life lighted to a Texas hospital in critical condition.  His parents and siblings made it to Texas from Tennessee before he died.

Today I sang on Praise Team.  As much as I love to sing on Praise Team, this was a hard hard day.  Our whole congregation was sad.  We cried. My eyes hurt.  But I prayed.  I prayed that even though I didn't want to be singing at this moment that God would sing through me and He did. Then He gave me a gentle reminder that let me know that He was there for me and He did just as I asked.  We sing for 2 services.  In between the services and immediately after the 2nd service I lost my voice.  But when I had to sing, I sang. It was beautiful.  Even the 2 songs that I didn't know before coming to church this morning and the duet- God sang those songs through me. I am blessed.

Now as I try to process all of this, I'm trying to prepare for another consignment sale.  I need to drop off the clothes tomorrow morning. I'm more mentally exhausted than I am physically. I hear the cold rain hitting the window, the wind blowing, the loud snoring from the above bedroom and I am just somber. My eyes are worn. It's hard to be motivated. I just need to sit in the quiet- for a moment- before I can start tagging these clothes.